Love is dead

sometimes you just need a word with yourself
sometimes you just need to take a break
and rearrange some cells, apply back-up
and tell her she'll never be the one
and she'll cry a bit then go on
(but maybe she didn't cry
maybe she didn't go on)

sometime i'll take a ride down the country
and go get lost in some random cornfield
and wonder about all the places you'd go
without me
all the nowheres i go with or without you

but right now i'm stuck in the mud and why can't i just lie here and cry
because that's not what men do
and i'm a child lost and angry
everything has changed for the worst
but a simple girl like her won't do either

some damn day i'm going to meet your gaze
straight down that flat horizon
and i will walk, then i will run but never reach you
still the chase will never faze me
because all i see is you staring straight ahead
fixed gaze, worrying, never looking back
never looking down at me and the sun
as you fade with the oncoming night

can you still see me
have you ever really seen me before